Ahavayeshana

My hair cutter died within the past five years due to a car accident. That alone was difficult enough for me to handle, because I'd been visiting her since I was fourteen years old. Even though she's ten years older than me, we developed a close bond as I grew older. She helped me through a lot of difficult times as a teenager, because she'd been through similar issues and could relate.

She finally announced she was going to divorce her husband, which came as an absolute shock, because she was regularly attending church and trying to be a devout Christian. She regularly participated in charities, too; she did a lot of good for the town. Looking back I should have realized the signs were screaming nothing was right in her life, and she was trying to put on a good act. Perhaps she was trying to convince herself? I honestly don't know.

Not long after she filed for separation, she started dating another man. She showed me a couple of pictures of him on her phone. She drastically lost weight due to stress, picked up smoking after having quit for a decade, and started talking about psychics. She would have been hard pressed to even acknowledge knowing a psychic, considering she was trying to be a loyal Christian. Generally speaking her behavior became more erratic (not because of the psychic, mind you)--She became more forgetful and nervous. Obviously she was under a lot of stress and wasn't having a good relationship with her young daughters.

While I was in the psychiatric ward, two hours away, someone came in for a couple of days. He looked oddly familiar and I couldn't put my finger on it; it had been several months since I'd seen her, let alone his pictures. When I found out his name, I asked him if he was dating -----? He became suspicious and asked me why? I apologized for freaking him and explained how I knew her. He must have decided he could trust me, because he opened up a little bit to me. I'm not going to go into details, but we got along very well.

After I left I didn't get to talk to her again. I found out six months later she passed away in an accident. That in itself wasn't what was so hard to cope with--It sucks; I was upset. I am hoping she finally found peace at last if there truly is an afterlife. She moved with her boyfriend and didn't really notify any of us where she was going; it wasn't even that that upset me. She probably just had to do it.

I started snooping around FaceBook one evening and found out her husband was remarried immediately after her passing. This is what upset me: Was he having an affair behind her back and tried to make her feel guilty so he wouldn't have to deal with it? I mean the marriage was within a few months; she'd barely just announced her divorce seven or eight months earlier. Did he really find a new love of his life that quick? Or was there something else going on?